Since when did "the world is fucked" mean fuck up your own life? Shit, the world's not great but making the one life you actually have some control over worse is insane. Go for a run, bike ride etc. Then Have a beer or two but a case a day holy fuck. Probably was a heavy drinker beforehand this was an excuse that enabled the behavior. Poor impulse control made worse by stress.

When you destroy yourself, they win.

Thanks to fascist lockdown policies

I think there might be an element of personal responsibility here.